when people know you as mentally strong or “blocked” it feels like you’ve lost your ability to hurt or actually cry, so you cry in private. You’re tormented in private. You care in private. When people know you as mentally strong or “blocked” that’s the only thing you remember when things begin to suck. How you’re not supposed to be the one who cries first or hurts the longest because it doesn’t work like that. I need to get over this mess. I need help. I need to talk then ball my eyes out all in the same day. But I don’t work like that.

How do you become memorable? To the point where people ask about you when you’re not there. How do you become missed? Loved? In tune with your emotions? Strong enough to cry?

Life man, life. There’s got to be more than this.

That is all.